“Addictive Life”

My body, or better say, I am, a very strange machine.

The entire combination of body, mind, thoughts, feelings and emotions is continuously active or working. The entire existence for years has been trying to understand the meaning of life. Numerous efforts of various degrees, since the beginning of the life, have been made to understand the purpose of life.

In spite of all the so called learnings, realizations, divine encounters or understandings, one purpose of life surely is living or surviving or experiencing the life.

I eat, I drink, I work, I think, I feel, I experience, I meditate, I   socialize, I fight, I love, I act , I rest,  I learn, I hurt, I win , I accumulate, I give, I grieve and …..on and on and on it goes…..

However, whatever activities of pleasure I indulge in , I want more of it. All these activities seem to be helping me live or survive, that surely must be one of the purposes of life.

I need to fill my life with some activities. I need ‘Fillers’ I can’t remain without any physical, mental, emotional or spiritual activity. Life is not meant to be like that. It is not life’s purpose.

The catch is that all the life purpose activities are rewarding in nature. I want to do them on repeated basis and want to do more of them more often.

They all are addictive.

Or is it that life, by nature, itself is addictive?

It is not the activity, thought, feeling or the substance that is addictive.

The life form is designed to be addictive for survival?

So I am faced with a very strange phenomenon.  The purpose of life is to live, experience and survive. I need to do multiple activities.

I eat and drink and I may get addicted to them. I work and I may get addicted to it. I earn and accumulate resources for my survival and I may get addicted to it. I play and exercise and may like to do it more often. If I rest and may feel like extending it.

Any fun activity like, music, movies, videogames, social media, sex or pornography is addictive.

I may get addicted to person or place or circumstances.

I may get addicted to feelings and emotions of anger, lust, worry, jealousy, hatred, ego, self-importance and self-centeredness and many more.

In fact, I may also get addicted to meditation, praying or spirituality or just discussions and readings on the same.

So it is not only the addictive substance or activity, it is my basic nature also that is addictive.

So I can’t remain without any activity. I need “Fillers” in my life. The entire existence means “FILLERS”

And

I am constitutionally made to get addictive to these fillers !!!

What do I DO?

I may try to keep a balance and keep things under control but I know how difficult it is to control even small emotions or feelings of love , anger resentment, security and fear etc.

I am constitutionally not made to remain or act under control.

So what should I do?

The only option, possibly, is that since I can’t live without ‘Fillers’ and all the ‘Fillers” are addictive, I must choose those addictive fillers that are less dangerous than others or may be less addictive and less harmful to me and the world that I live in.

I must be aware of my ‘Life Fills’ or ‘Fillers’ and chose them carefully….

What are my Options for Fillers?

i am fine

More on ‘Fillers’ coming soon……